The girls will be 4 in less than a month. I don't know why but 4 seems to be taking a toll on me. I didn't mind when they turned 1,2 or 3. But 4...it's almost like I'm losing my babies :( They're becoming little people with their own opinions and their own personalities are really starting show. Mostly what I'm noticing is that they don't need me as much anymore. Emily especially. She's so damn independent it drives me nuts. It's the small things too - like the other day I handed them each a juice box. Before I turned around - she had her straw in the box and was drinking...no help required putting it together. I know how silly this looks reading it. But at the moment - it broke my heart.
I also don't see ANYBODY lately unless they happen to knock on my door and walk in. I work when the girls are in school and once I pick them up it's like time just flies by and all of a sudden it's time for dinner and bed. Those few hours everyday are what I am cherishing most though. I am able to spend time with the girls doing things I wouldn't otherwise have time for if I were still working full time. Today - we printed out some coloring pages online, colored them, put stickers on them and then cut them into little pieces with scissors *that they no longer need help with :( After that I painted their fingernails and then they put on makeup...a lot of makeup lol. Then I gave them a bath. Where they told me they didn't need me to wash them up because they could do it alone. It's all these little things that are making me realize that 4 is just too old!!!!!!
I want my babies back.
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